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Rabbi Danya Ruttenberg's avatar
Sarah Jennings's avatar

This is a powerful reading. Thank you.

This line struck a chord with me especially in terms of the concepts of harm, healing, reparative and restorative justice, compassion and tshuva that I'll be taking with me into the month of Elul and the HHD season:

"The mere fact of experiencing oppression is sometimes insufficient for providing the necessary empathy for others."

While this is true certainly, and with the hopes of not being overly semantic and pedantic, I'd argue that there's another line to add here. Because sometimes - experiencing oppression isn't just insufficient, but can be a direct obstacle to showing the necessary empathy for others - most particularly when wounds go unhealed, without repair or even acknowledgement. There's that new adage "hurt people hurt people" and we see it played out over and over again with the highest of stakes all throughout human history and in the smallest or petty ways in our own lives and interpersonal relationships. From major wars to the retaliatory withholding of emotional support to our friends or loved ones we feel didn't give us enough support when it needed it (and 100s of other examples) it seems that far too often we humans respond to hurt, harm and trauma by inflicting hurt and harm upon others. Perhaps an additional reason we see this message repeated 36 times is that it's so hard to hear when our own wounds still ache.

Wounded animals become fiercely defensive and lash out and humans are no different. Was Sarah ever permitted to heal? Did anyone ever even acknowledge what she went through? How much did she internalize patriarchical notions that women's bodies belong to those in power? Did she, like so many other women in stories as old as the ability to storytell (I was thinking about Medea, and Lilith and Babayaga and more yesterday for unrelated reasons), get through what happened to her by making a vow that next time she would be the one in the position of power - no matter who she hurt along the way? Do we not see this ideal in so many of the stories we tell about what a "strong woman" looks like? Isn't she most of the time the badass who slays her enemies (and who frequently steps on the backs of other women to get to do so)?

As always I have more questions than answers - but how do we subvert this narrative and how do we get to a place where empathy isn't just something we are told 36 times we should have when we still haven't healed or repaired the harm? And of course - (again as Elul and Yom Kippur approach this is more present in my thoughts) how do we take steps to heal and repair the harm we ourselves have caused? Can we ask for "civility" or empathy from people who have suffered egregious harm at the hands of a government and society who has yet to even acknowledge, let alone repair that harm (looking at you America and our inability to even pass HR-40, let alone make even just a formal apology for slavery)? How long can we just sling injustices back and forth (looking at you Middle East, and others too of course that I have even less background on - but India/Pakistan, Ethiopia/Eritrea, The Balkans, Catholic/Protestant conflicts in Europe and the UK for centuries, England/Ireland - these really are just a few examples there's lots more) until we stop justifying them and start making peace from a place of empathy? How long will we tell stories with anti-heroes who we celebrate for the harm they do because we seem to place ruthlessness above compassion? How do we change the narrative to focus on repair rather than retaliation?

How have we done this in our own lives in countless tiny ways - I did this recently when I had sought help from one friend to help another friend dealing with grief and loss. I let my disappointment in them, honestly not for not helping, but for telling me they would help and then not following through and wasting a full day where I could have just done the thing myself if they had been direct and just said no (I literally told them to say no if they couldn't do it because there were others to ask and I respect that not everyone is always able to help - just don't jack me around). But they did - they said they would do a thing, didn't do it - got mad at me for reminding them to do it and wasted precious time before finally saying - "why can't you just do it?" And then a week later they asked me for help (on a thing I could have actually worked out) - and I just said no - pretty pissed off that they treated me the way they had before and then expected me to hop to when they needed a favor. I did do the thing that I had most wanted from them, to just say no straight up without wasting their time by saying yes when I had no intention of following through, but I did allow the hurt they had done to me (a small and petty one compared to my other examples - but my point is that this is both high stakes and low stakes) to cause me to refuse my empathy and help and I'm gonna have to unpack that.

Btw - this is all meant to be an addition to Rabbi's point - not a criticism of it - it is Rabbi Ruttenberg's previous articles and twitter threads and lectures etc on the topic of forgiveness, tshuva and apologies that inform most of these thoughts and questions rolling around in my brain.

Thanks as always for listening.

Sarah - she/hers

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Tom McLean's avatar

Rabbi, thank you for this reflection. It strikes me as remarkable that despite how patriarchal the redaction of Scripture was and the interpretative history is, God keeps managing to poke in these disruptions, if only we will listen! The call is always there to read more closely and spot how much we are, or have been, in the place of the stranger, however much those with privilege try to hide that (and I must very much recognise my own complicity with the hiding).

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